December 31st 2008

You broke me.
I am decimated.

dec·i·mate

tr.v. dec·i·mat·ed, dec·i·mat·ing, dec·i·mates

1. To destroy or kill a large part of (a group).

2. Usage Problem
a. To inflict great destruction or damage on:

The fawns decimated my rose bushes.

b. To reduce markedly in amount
3. To select by lot and kill one in every ten of.

I'm in pieces, from bleecker to avenue a to new jersey, back and forth, back and forth.

"I'm fond of you, I'm not in love with you, but this is nice..."

None of your apologies were sincere. You're laughing to yourself.

You are a snake.

It's clear you don't take me seriously. For you this is mindless obsession, a farce.
I wish that were true, maybe I'll try convincing myself of it.

More fucked up than I've ever been before. And you were trying to avoid this? Great job, I hope you feel like a fucking hero.

"Don't pile shame onto this, there's enough shame in the world..."

I'm not ashamed of myself, you arrogant son of a bitch.
You should be.

What's sad is that I don't want anything to change. Not really.
But I'm fairly certain you never will.






I learned that heartbreak and LSD compliment each other nicely.
Happy New Year indeed.